Despite my efforts at dieting and sports during my school days, I only lost weight and gained muscle, but my physique never changed. And what was worse, after my pregnancy, I ended up even more spoon-shaped, having gained more weight and even noticeable stretch marks on my thighs, hips, and abdomen.
After pregnancy, my insecurities deepened. I became more conscious of how I dressed, avoiding any clothes and activities like swimming that would bring attention to my hips or expose my legs in any way.
When I was with my friends, my husband or daughter, I would criticise female celebrities for their minor imperfections whenever I saw them in the news, or make disapproving remarks loudly of petite-sized strangers in public for showing too much skin or wearing tight hot shorts. And I would even make these mean comments of female colleagues at work!
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